1, 2, 3, floor

Im drinking more, partying harder and wasting my life on the memoreies of what could have been. thinking of the people i miss and the reasons as to why im doing this. how did i get myself into this situation, how did i end up as that girl. the one i would look at and think 'disaster'

Decorating is soothing..

Guess whose decorating her room after 3years in the same home....yes me! It's taking time but I know its guna be worth it. I needed to cleanse the walls of all it's past secrets and let them go. so many bad memories, I needed to create a new space to breathe. Dusting out the old him and the old friends that have come and gone. A coat of paint can hide the many sins but it takes you to whisper its time to let go...

Times a healer

I haven't blogged in a whole! It's been a crazy year and I haven't felt like I needed to but now I'm guna blog so much more!!!

Missing someone that was once a huge part of your life is possibly one of the worst things. Knowing that once everything was so different than what it was today. What an earth happened. I can't figure or pin point where it all dissolved. A friendship like a candle that fought to the end of it's flicker and then just turnt to smoke. i guess in a way if you were to actually talk to me now you'd realise how god damn grown up I am. but you'd still see that I would like to have a friendship with you again. maybe oneday you'll read this and realise that your reading about you and you'll text me and see how I am.

you are, in my eyes, perfect.

joke.

can you honestly tell me when you lived your life without;

bitching

lies

or

fakeness?

if she can jump from one friendship to another in such a short time then im sure shes not 100% a true friend.

there comes a time in life when you need to seperate yourself from those who dont have faith in you.
pull yourself away from all the shit and childishness that there is in your life and tell yourslf in the long run this is for the best. iv been grown up for such a long time, i began to get tired of all the bitchyness and fakeness. running back and fourth from friedships is not how i saw my life. i needed more then to be told i couldnt and more of that i could.

look at me now, i have a dream job i always new i would deserve...