Your first; your last; your always

I don't just think there's one person, I think there's many. You can love a lot of people in a lifetime... Could you be one of them?

That old chestnut...

What could have been? - that's what people always say. Iv got empty spaces in my head filled with that life long question.

The different paths I could have taken, the people I could have and shouldn't have met and wondering if I'm ever going to shake the feelings that are locked away in me.

I.love.you (honest)

In a lifetime, you will say I love you to more people then you can imagine. It will be said many times, heard lots, but only be meant to very few.

I love you gives you the power to ensure the other that your committed to what you have whether its a friendship or a relationship.

Three simple words have never been so double ended, it can be the end of a relationship: "I love you, but it's me, I can't do this "
Or it can be the start of something: "I love you more then anything"

I love you is understood by everyone, can be spoken in many ways and given the chance everyone would wish for it.

i always give away my heart, little pieces to different people over the years.

if i fall apart look the other way,

when all the things i need feel like a dream.

and every breath i breathe is so hard,

i just want a reason to hope, a reason to know that i should still be here

maybe just a glimpse of the light, a patch of blue sky...

something to believe in

i just want a reason to hope

i just want a reason so that i should not let go

its hard to say that times are bad,

because i can admit its been much worse

these days are awfully hard and the prayers come out

as im on my knees wondering what is it worth to still be here

1, 2, 3, floor

Im drinking more, partying harder and wasting my life on the memoreies of what could have been. thinking of the people i miss and the reasons as to why im doing this. how did i get myself into this situation, how did i end up as that girl. the one i would look at and think 'disaster'

Decorating is soothing..

Guess whose decorating her room after 3years in the same home....yes me! It's taking time but I know its guna be worth it. I needed to cleanse the walls of all it's past secrets and let them go. so many bad memories, I needed to create a new space to breathe. Dusting out the old him and the old friends that have come and gone. A coat of paint can hide the many sins but it takes you to whisper its time to let go...

Times a healer

I haven't blogged in a whole! It's been a crazy year and I haven't felt like I needed to but now I'm guna blog so much more!!!