i hate what iv become today, snapping at everyone and not explaining why.
how do you explain that your low?
that your mum is increasingly ill and you cant find the right way to express your feelings.
that all you wanna do is scream into a pillow and wish the world away;
how do you say that you just want a single cuddle, one effortless cuddle from someone - any one.

i want life to be simple again. why is it never simple? WHY?!
just when you finally think 'yeah life is good' it comes crashing the fuck down on you again.
fuck my life.