bang, bang you shot me down.

im done with love. done with hurt. done with liking someone only to realise im being strung along. im tired of the constant wondering and the pointlessness of everything inbetween. its only after that you realise that what some people think is so perfect - that whole, first proper meeting and all that - is actually just a waste of time. im sick of feeling like this - feeling vunerable & that odd feeling of happiness you get when you like someone. i cant stand it anymore! i cant stand being so easy going, i want to shout and scream and tell the whole world why im locking up my heart! i sat and wondered about love today. wondered why it makes the world go round, why it twists things upside down and why an earth it can lead someone to self distruct. how can something so unexplainable have so much power over a person? it puzzles me to an extent that i physically feel so angry thinking about how men can so heartlessly lead a girl on and drop her. its always worse when its the nice guys too, i mean the players i can handle - i expect it from them. but the nice ones, the actualy generally lovely men that first become your friends, then more... can simply drop you. leaving you not only annoyed but kinda hurt to. im not asking for alot, not looking for love that will last a lifetime, just someone and something that will treat me the way a girl should be treated. with respect and love. i dont want a perfect relationship, i just want for both people to be happy. i wont lie, i know im alot to handle and i have my faults but who doesnt? so many times iv thought... well hes lovely and they've turned out to just be complete twats, well not now. im done. liking someone just is not enough these days, looks and everything come into play and face it if you dont have the looks you have no chance. the world has become a stuck up place and if you dont fit in, society calls you eveything else but the word beautifull. maybe ill learn from today and possibly stop regretting the choice of not kissing you when i should have. yes i admit it finally, theres a man behind the reasoning to post this blog. but isnt there always?